Addiction to Porn and Masturbation- Peter 24

Getting my new phone.
I am Peter, 24 years and this is how I was addicted to porn and masturbation. It was back in class seven, third term, when I got a new phone, not a smartphone but a button phone that had access to the internet. If some of you can remember, there were very few accessible websites back then in 2009, and Safaricom had introduced new cheap internet bundles, so I started by going to Waptrick to download games to play, and I was happy for six months; everything was working out until I was redirected as I wanted to download a new game to a porn website through a pop-up ad, it was too seductive to miss out. Two minutes into the website, I discovered that I could download porn videos of four minutes; this was fantastic; even better, I could download porn games that were even more glorious. This content made me horny as hell, and slowly, I started rubbing my penis; it was a nice feeling, one out of this world, but I never ejaculated. Due to a lack of bundles, I could only access this website a few times a month.

After circumcision, the habit got worst.
When I was circumcised after class 8 and then healed and after being initiated and taught all about sex, the habit got worse. I was now making holes in my mattress and then having sex with it, went to pillows, to the bathroom with soap and now became a professional when I discovered the power of Arimis (petroleum jelly); this was an invention, a revolution to my addiction to masturbation had officially begun. Now at form two, I was equipped with a smartphone and doing it three times a day. I started being tired, irritable and lacking interest in anything; the only thing that made me happy was porn and masturbation.

Turning to prayer and fasting.
I turned to prayer and fasting, but, 'wapi joh sikutoboa', since I was in a day school, I couldn't escape the maze. I had nyongad (masturbated) from 2009 till September 2022. I had a girlfriend with who we had sex, but I wasn't ever satisfied, I had to imagine I was fucking my favourite pornstar Alexis for me to cum. My performance was top-tier, but I wasn't satisfied I lacked something even after sex with her, I had to masturbate after the sex.

Reading an article.
After reading an article on semen retention and masturbation in a Twitter thread and watching YouTube videos about its effect on the brain, I realized I had to stop. The best way was to divert my attention to other activities and keep myself busy. The first time I went for two weeks, then relapsed for a month, then relapsed, then two days, then relapsed again, and now for five months clean.

Going off social media sites.
I had to go off social media sites which triggered me, and even though I relapsed a couple of times, I didn't give up. My message is that even though you might fail a few times, keep believing you can do it and beat it. Avoid scenes and sites that trigger, and you'll make it. If I had shared my struggle, I know I would have gotten help than struggle with masturbation in silence. It's not worth it kunyonga!